Yesterday was a real kick in the ass. I can't believe I took those photos it was one of the hardest things I have had to do in long time. I know I needed to, so I could see head on what I was dealing with. I have always looked at other peoples before pictures and to be quite honest they made me feel better. Not because I saw someone that I thougth was worse off than me, not because I got some pick pleasure out of seeing someone not living up to their potential but because it made me feel as though I wasn't alone. That I was not the only person dealing with these demons, nobody likes to be alone no matter how introvertd they are. So I hope someone gets something out of this public display of my fight. I hope someone can see this and think I am not alone, there is someone else out there that has lost control of their health and dispises what they see in the mirror. And my hopes are to keep this up and begin to win the battle and turn the tables on food. From now on this is my life and I am taking control.

Goals for the day:
1. Exercise
2. No sugar soaked snacks
3. Drink plenty of water
4. Eat heathly meals

The truth hurts

Up down, up down. The scale and I have been mortal enemies for as long as I can remember. I have come to the realization that it is time to make a new friend. So the journey begins... The purpose of this, acountability. There is now physical proof of what my body has become and looking at it head on I am horrified at what I see. I make no claims to be a writer, my spelling is terrible, and I have a problem with consistancy. But what the hell, if you can deal with all that come along for the ride. Support me, modivate me, travel with me. Here we go there is no turning back the weightloss ship has set sail.

Below are my before photos.
Today is 23 May 2007
Day 1
5'7" tall 200lbs